He died the very day he started to live!!!

the day was moron as was his last night, not only nights but last days and not only days but weeks but not only weeks , years too. He was struggling for getting a better life since long ...nothing seems to work for him , no excitement in work, no hope in life, no peace of mind yet he didn't know what is missing. He had all mundane things with him, loving people around him ...still some emptiness,

"Why is it so??" he asked himself while driving in his convertible Porsche through freeway near the sea.
"I have all what should be there"...."No" said the inner voice , "You don't have all ".
so he said "Whats missing ?" while speeding and enjoying his holiday while blue sky and sunny e day was all over him.
He didn't hear anything . He repeated again "What is this hollowness for??" , the inside voice is still quiet. He again said while thumping his wheel with hands, "I have fullfiled my ambitions , i am doing good in career, I enjoy night out with my friends... I have been having one night stands, i have all what a man of my age can possess. So whats it then?? "
No you don't have everything , the inside replied "You have money not happiness; you have body not health; you have sex not intimacy; you have acquaintance not friends; above all you have lust not love ....and thats why its hollow!!!"
"None of these are close to your heart , they might be close to your senses." ..it added while a cool breeze was blowing through his head, perturbation inside were leaving him cold from inside
, he was numb on such a thought.
"So" he said "what can I do , its difficult to find love, infact rare to find it. Its not alive anymore "
"Did u ever try?" the inside was rebelling against him "Do you try to be close to anyone? share dreams, aspirations, blunders, open up and be free soul to anyone?" He said "No, people are shrewd and especially girls they are always? and anyways i believe love is nothing but a way to sex . At last the love is all about sex, this is how the world is moving, Anyways you either fall in love with someone and marry him/her and have family after a good sex. So love is nothing but a lust feeling which stays inside and when expressed with one it is called love , and its only our prime need to copulate that govern us to have it".
"Such a mean idea, so you mean to say Its all about sex sex and sex. People love each other because they love bodies of each other???. "from inside came the voice.
"Yes , and lets cut this crap , and let me enjoy", he said to himself.
"No , and that what explains why you feel so hollow!!!" a pause....
"Means?" he exclaimed with eyebrows touching together as if his idea is being challenged by himself. "Because you had been keeping this belief you have all the stuff but no matter in life"
You mean to say he replied to himself "money not happiness, body not health, sex not intimacy, acquaintance not friends and lust not love??"
"Yes" inner voice
"I don't believe it " he attacked
"So where's your belief taking you, You are stagnant in life. Aren't You? "
"Okay I will try this and lets see!!" He said to himself although disbelievingly but anyways he thought of trying the option to get in peace with himself.
He looked out and found a beautiful sunset, thought of stopping by, he parked the car.
It was a cliff and a beautiful small hill near it , so he thought of climbing it to see the sunset down in the sea clearly. As he climbed he found it more invigorating and got more enchanted by the idea of his own of let go his own views and start living all over again (not sure although). As soon as he was finding solace he heard a sharp voice nearby somewhere, somebody screaming .... He ran to that side , he didn't see anything, and thought must have mistaken , no he hasn't it repeated and he ran towards the place it came from. A man was trying to throw a woman below the cliff while she was struggling.
A second he felt he should save her and then the saw the strong man, that woman was already on the verge of falling. He told himself, " No No!!, I don't want to get into trouble, the man might kill him also as the only witness".
But then , he thought, "No I should, may be I can feel happy after saving one life and no need to believe my inside thoughts then". he was still thinking to prove himself to his consciousness.
And he ran that way with the loud shout "Leave her or I will shoot", pretending a gun in his pocket. The other man saw him and with more thrust threw the women away.
He thought that she was gone but a moment he reached there he saw her hand on edge of cliff. The other man thought first to handle the witness , so in no time he pounced upon him and both of them started a tussle.
The woman was still shouting and this gave him a zeal... a zeal to prove himself. He started knuckling down the strong man till he heard a bang punch on his face.
He was slight unconscious but he took with his keys which he was pretending to be gun and gave a knuckle to the man. 1 ....2......3 he said to himself the other man got hurt and felt unconscious .
The woman was giving a lame cry, so he just ran and reached out for her and tried to pull her up, by the time he pulled her up, he felt pushed by someone.
And then he felt all , he was diving deep into the sea and it was for first time he himself was watching himself setting down in sea than the sun.
He felt a complete life as he was falling down , all moments he was treasuring at that time, he could feel love of mother, intimacy of his first love, good health, friendships of dear friends he had left long ago...but no desires.
In a vague attempt to prove himself right (his beliefs)... he proved himself (inner self) right. His thoughts were as he was able to pull a life out for someone but he himself was going to die the very day he started to live!!!!